First I must apoligize for my mysterious absences as they are the result of sometimes financial problems & sometimes medical & life happens. I would to be here consistantly. But it seems things seem to come against me. I still compose even tho I can't interact, hoping to bring you a new twist or just to poke fun, as I journey to being a greater part of the community. I would be further along and it seems things would hinder me but I persist even tho the pressure would push me to quit. I have found a great group of fantastic PEOLE who realize that as we go thru the requirements of sometimes monumental strife we have those who will always reach out without a thought to explain yourself. You are my friend what do you need. I am here but I am not. I want to be but sometimes can't. I am barely here now but something allowed me to be. I have no internet so how am I typing this now!? Seriously I have NO internet. Some how I got a connection & showed up while I was working on a theme. This is a mystery. Maybe a gift. I hope you think me not cracked. I was very sick and missed all of you & had no way of letting you all know I was still here & and had so much to share & wanted to see all you all had done as your works inspire me. The gift of what has been given me is your creativity, you all in some way have created me. And I want to show in some way you haven't wasted your time, money, patience, hopes for no reason. I remember do you back when we had dreams? It's time for those to take & bear fruit. You are all my inspiration.